so much of
me,
has been
scattered amongst
you.
loves long
lost in
lust,
tears,
and feigned regret.
so many sweet words
and gentle caress.
intimate moments,
unique
and
so magical.
so many soul shattering orgasms
(well, a few anyways)
so much given
and shared,
now passed
unto memory.
but,
i have so much
MORE
to give,
and no my darling,
i don’t do repeats.
tightly rounded shoulders.
arms crossed
defiant.
emotional mma champ
4 decades running.
all
holds
barred.
pursed and
shriveled lips
frame an austerity
so sharp,
your acerbic wit
oft goes
unchallenged
&
unnoticed….
like your heart.
not yet shriveled,
it is tight with a yearning,
for that breath of life
denied
so long ago,
time
and time again.
you see,
when you looked in my eye
and said,
“I’ll be fine”.
I already knew.
and you did too.
a storm beckons
and I look for you.
these hands
seek comfort
in protecting
you.
but,
with head
layed down
on
soft, rounded breast,
i surrender,
drowned
in power primordial.
lend me
your strength ma’-
let us roar once again
and show
them
how deep love can go.
a storm beckons
and we look to one another.
today
thoughts wander through misty skies
and
my heart
turns back,
feeling for you.
joy
unleashed
unfettered
& unrequited.
and still
I rejoice
in the giving.
such pleasure
grips the soul
eternal.
that love
was not to your
taste;
yet selfishly
I savored
stirring your pot.
reminded
of the love
that I am,
I thank you.
little
drops
of
paradise
flood this peaceful soul:
silence.
bird chatter.
a gently snoring dog.
combining into a maelstrom
of calming delight.
life
flows with wondrous
beauty-
like
young lovers
cleaving unto
the magic of their
bliss.
these tears
you feel
streaming down my face
were baptized in anger.
stolen
raped
lynched
sexualized
ridiculed
demonized
feared
murdered
shamed
and that was just yesterday.
i don’t know
if i can forgive you.
i don’t know
if i want to.
ancestral sins haunt us all
but your
continued wanton lust to
dominate
weakens you and
hath awaken the fury,
and the fire
within
me.
within us.
and all of hell’s glory
shall rain
upon your misguided,
twisted, and
vacated souls.
still then
i don’t know
if i will forgive you.
i don’t know
if i will want to.
these tears are not to soften my fear-
these tears will wash away the blood to come.
so let us tumble together
along this
slippery
descent
into Oblivion.
though paths diverged
long ago,
perhaps we may yet shelter
in the comfort of each other.
faith leaps
from this happy heart.
to sink,
and
to soar perhaps,
with you.
unwaveringly fascinated
and
still
patiently in love,
with you.
thank you,
for this taste
of infinity.
hope
springs…
waiting.
a cup
that never runneth.
even birdsong
drowns
in its own stagnation.
something,
coming but
never here….
only the
waiting.
waiting for love to finally (re)appear.
waiting for destiny to thrust aside care.
waiting for hope to push back fear.
waiting to age, one more year.
flowing
through rushing currents
of life ecstatic,
still my friend,
i wait for you.
waiting
for you was never a chore
because you
were always there
next to me.
loving you
burns
like
24 year old scotch
whiskey
slipping under my soul.
life
is filled
with wonder and
peace when
my gaze meets
yours.
you
and
I
shall travel forever
dancing
together on
infinite winds
across the
wings of
memory.
yes,
we will know
eternity.
❤️❤️❤️
I light
this candle
to
the joy floating
within me.
this love witch
grants me the grace
to cleave unto beauty,
and
onto thee
theDeprevation 