this longing,
undiminished yet
faltering,
like a wet feather in the wind.
swirling galaxies of delight and wonder
wait
to find their way
to you.
if only i was strong enough,
if only there was time enough.
if only.
if only.
a stalking wind,
hot
dry,
charged with audacity
and purpose,
rolls in
over my dreams,
sending tingles of nostalgia
through these borrowed bones.
it is time.
are you ready?
blinded by need
and crippled by love,
i give
all that remains,
and you laugh
as i fade into the mist
that covers the world.
longing
for the sweet smell of home.
the smell of history,
whispered through the air.
that familiar smell,
of power
rising,
…….from the very earth.
home, where i bathed in starlight,
letting rivulets of wisdom
roll down my soul:
tears of the ancestors
who mourn what was yet to be.
tears of the ancestors
who mourn what would never be.
so i sing,
that they know,
what has come to be,
i sing
that they know our new story.
and i sing,
that they dry their tears.
and i sing
that they might welcome me home.
silent
& thunderous.
an inferno
of the serene.
I look
up
in awe, my heart
leaping
across infinity
as your cool flame scalds my soul.
A hope deferred.
a dream
wasted.
Dawn’s fiery promise,
fades limply
to a pale blue sky.
what wonders brew in your soul?
what magic beckons to your call?
what power do you hold?
let me go,
and chase the divinity
which is yours.
or,
remain here,
with me,
and bask,
adoringly
in the embers of yesterday.
without pause or
doubt,
or fear of what may,
i pull
inexorably
to you.
the threads
of my life,
between nimble fingers,
tangled and knotted-
but we,
so far from besotted.
no way but up,
to fall into open arms.
no way but down,
to where we belong.
no way,
but the way
we forgot.
one path
to
a Love
destined.
one fall
to an
Oblivion
guaranteed.
one soul,
afire with hope &
purpose &
love.
Shrouded
in the brilliant
preponderance
of the coming storm,
and
ensconced
in swirling mists
of ether,
magics,
and assorted devilry,
Destiny calls out,
desperately
yearning for your touch.
Do you
hear her?
Do you want to?
or would you rather slip
back
into sweet angelic
dreams of beauty
and love?
hidden away in vaults of eternal treasure,
She waits for your embrace.
Will you answer?
or simply wither away?
wave breaks against this dawn:
more
of the same pain
washes in, anew.
the Flot
and
Jet of flooded
emotions and memories
stifle…..
painlessly.
sweet surrender..
into the anonymity
of what almost
could be.
Dawn breaks
and this wisdom,
ebbs…..
away.
whisper once
and hear
this soul echo
and ache.
whisper twice
and see
love cry.
whisper again
and feel
infinity slip
into a memory
ringing out
in the silent corners of my soul:
a joyous cacophony of love
and pain.
mothers call
and fathers cry….
over a future turned inside out.
looking back
across the storm
we must not fear.
we must not fail.
we sail upon
their very tears…
we must not fail
we must not fear
let us,
together,
take our struggles
and our hate,
and our fear….
let us bond these pieces
with love’s joy.
let us make our fathers
and
our mothers proud,
let us, together,
put them to rest
in peace
we must not fear.
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