Deprevation

do i prioritize
what I feel?
Anger-
Pity-
more Anger-
Fury even.
Where is the pain?
Where is the sadness?
Where is the sense of loss?
How dare I feel pity-
I am ashamed to.
But how do I balance
this anger
with more anger.
I doubt not the fundamentals-
I learned well from Job
and his arrogant catechisms.
I know how it works, Simba and warthogs and rain…
but what of empathy
for a life not lived?
what of anger towards those who chew away at the soul.
and vomit hate and abuse?
Is my soul’s rage OK?
well I hope so.
Because I feel it roiling…
and sorry chumps,
feeding time is past.